“Descend Into Despair is not any extra.
“Whats up everybody, Xander right here. That is the primary and final time that I exploit the band as a medium to deal with you all instantly. Sadly, it’s to say goodbye. For 13 years I’ve struggled to pour my coronary heart into what I’ve thought was my that means in life. Slowly, but absolutely, it turned apparent that I clearly wouldn’t have the power to create artwork. From the idea itself to the art work and particularly the music, I’ve actually tried to create one thing distinctive. With time it turned apparent that no one actually linked and that all the battle was in useless.
“For 13 years this band has been an important facet of my life. Most of my life philosophy, the great books I learn, the attention-grabbing music I listened to, the excellent cinematography that graced my eyes, the traumatic occasions, and the transient moments of sunshine made their manner into this undertaking. I’ve tried to make Descend into Despair as actual as potential. I at all times ran away from roads that might result in monetary good points, and I’ve at all times tried to take away my private self as a lot as potential from the band. The ego was purported to die and its power reborn into my life’s work. Though it slowly turned apparent that that is one thing that I can’t obtain, I can consolation myself understanding that I’ve remained true to the method and did not find yourself promoting roadside trinkets as official merchandise (essentially the most we ever did apart from the album itself was t-shirts, one mannequin per album), or releasing ten completely different particular editions of the identical album. Nothing for the self, every part for the artwork. At the very least with Opium, the album during which we poured most of our sources, all of the devices have been actual, all of the art work was actual (images with an actual mannequin, actual portray, no publish modifying, no lies), and all of the ache was actual. On this last hour, by means of all of the tears I can a minimum of trace on the faint notion of a smile as a result of IT WAS ALL REAL.
“On this lengthy path, I’ve met loads of superb people, a few of which I hope to name associates for all times and even brothers. I’m past grateful for having the prospect to satisfy you all.
“Throughout our time within the scene, we’ve got at all times struggled to acquire gigs, have promoters reply to us, or have most individuals present a distant signal of curiosity. Being a continuing sideshow and a warm-up for different bands was by no means meant to be the means by which I showcase my life’s work. Sadly, this can be very apparent that I by no means had the power to create an artwork kind that was worthwhile for anybody.
“For the only a few that really had persistence with my failure, I thanks from the underside of my coronary heart and I apologize for disappointing all of you. This band has been graced with among the finest musicians that I do know and it’s a tragedy that their skills weren’t channeled into one thing extra worthwhile.
“And final and positively not least I’ve to specific my gratitude in the direction of Descend Into Despair. I’m so sorry for failing you. Thanks for being there in my darkest hours. Thanks for retaining me alive. It breaks my coronary heart understanding that I may by no means do you justice. I by no means deserved you. I’ve failed you. I’ve failed all of you.
“an empty deck of playing cards –
– effaced; the destiny cannot lure
I’m the distinction of elements
forgetting is an ailing remedy”